ive graduated americorps! ive served my country! ive moved to the suburbs! ive bought shoes at nordstroms! ive made a new friend! ive signed up for state medical insurance! ive found stability! but... im not sure im ready to leave for california! i keep putting it off! in a few days i will have mothers ashes in my hands and i will stand in front of the house she died in and i will see faces that i havent thought of since she passed! my dearest laney took my mother to burning man and placed her in the temple and watched her spirit dance in three story flames! everyone is finding their closure and im still afraid!